R11: Getting Beat Like An Old Rug

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So Hunter left and I cannot believe the amount of rewards that got used at TC, was a complete clusterfuck of a vote... just when you want something to go your way for once in this game, it doesn't. Our options are running out fast, and how I see it, the longer I stick with Anti-Feng, the faster my death clock ticks, but if I stick with Feng and flip on my alliance, I'm going to get no higher than 6th place. I do want to stay loyal to my alliance, but yet I want to do what is best for my placing in this game. The most I can do right now is kiss some Feng ass and hope they won't target me.

I knew last tribal Erinn targeting Bobby was a huge blunder, because it killed a vote on our side. Erinn's trying hard to control Anti-Feng, but it's like every move we go for, it doesn't work in our favor. It's constantly "let's try to pull in Russell." I mean how many times has Russell lied to our side about voting with us?, and you still want to swing Russell's vote to our side? I like Erinn, I like that she's a thinker, but the way she's thinking now isn't working in our favor.

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This next immunity challenge is critical to win for me personally, but I gotta keep in mind Brett has a challenge advantage that he can use anytime, which could very well be this next challenge. If I know anything about Brett, it's that he gets really paranoid. The sucky thing is this challenge sounds like it's story-teller or some poetry type thing based on the treemail, and the 48 hour time. Russell is good at this stuff considering he won this in Manchuria, and Kim is pretty good at it too, so I got my work cut out for me. I think now they would gun for me next or Erinn, just cause we are the most threatening to their side. I can't afford any prizes this round to help us out, so it's all up to Lex and Alina to buy stuff to help us. It would be nice to have an insurance policy, to help me stay in another round, and immunity is just that thing I need. Lex winning would probably not be the best thing in my mind just because if he wins, that leaves me at risk, and with winning immunity, I won't have the stress over the vote being me to worry about. Their side is loaded with goodies like a candy shop... It's all about targeting the people that will least expect it, and with all those prizes comes the possibility that Feng is spending all their points to buy items to use against us. If they are broke, it gives us some advantage.

My mind personally is swinging between flipping on Anti-Feng and risk pissing them all off, and risk getting no higher than 6th place, or stick with Anti-Feng and wait to die in this game.

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This tribal, I would love to see Brett leave if anyone, but I don't think we're going to have the votes for it, simply cause me and Erinn can't afford prizes anymore... The only ones that can are Alina and Lex. I do think Hunter told about what prizes we were going to use on Colleen, just cause the nullified votes seemed to go perfectly along with the people that used the prizes. Colleen also knew about Hunter's 2x nullifier, so I think all along Hunter was the one feeding them information, which idk why cause they all voted him out of this game.

Anyways, I think tribal should be us switching up our targets, just cause if we keep hitting random targets, they'll never know which one we are doing next. Brett leaving would be smart, but they don't wanna do that, I just wanna be like "Come on guys, let's jump the king!" Taking out Brett cuts the dragon's head right off, and that would put Kim in the driver's seat as far as the new leader would go. If I can single handedly take out one of the biggest threats on Feng's side, that would help me get a good case going if I were to make FTC.

First things first is the IC which I am going to try and write something that even Russell can't manage to top if it's story writing. I've never been good as a comedy writer (considering most of the stories I write are horror stories.), but I would be willing to try it if I know my ass is on the line if I'm not immune at TC.

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So now this immunity just got a bit more crucial... We have poured gasoline on an already blazing fire at this point. A double TC means only two things, that my target is increasing, because I've seen two things these last two tribals:

A) An Anti-Feng has gotten the boot.

B) Two original Auha members have gotten the boot.

I'm honestly nervous at this point if I don't win immunity. I'm a writer, and for me writing under criteria is definitely something that is tough for me, but I'm willing to try anything if it's to save my ass at this point. All I can hope for is maybe Lex and Erinn are the bigger threats in their eyes, and not me. I also do think they'd see me as the only one on Anti-Feng they can flip over at the F7, and I don't think they'd see Lex and Erinn budging, so maybe I can go on that and survive this TC. I need to look out for #1, which is me at this point... I clearly don't wanna go home, I mean who does? is a better question.

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So I finally managed to finish my story which I have been working on since the time I woke up. It is about 12-13 pages long if I counted right. I am really nervous about this challenge because I am scared that the judges aren't going to like what I came up with enough that I win immunity, but I think I did my best and that's really all that matters. If I don't win, the only options I have at this point are to try my best to talk to the Fengs and try to get their targets off me, and hope for the best at this point. I don't feel safe if I don't win, because it's either gonna be me/Erinn, me/Lex, or Erinn/Lex leaving at TC if we're not immune.

I do feel that somehow I might get that "save the best for last" thing because part of me feels like they will keep me around till the very end just cause they know that I am more likely to flip on Anti-Feng than the others are. Maybe they'll keep around Alina, I don't know. This game is really unpredictable, and I'm gonna hope for the best at this point.

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I figured that since I probably won't have anything new to write about until the IC results go up, so I thought I would share something with you.



I thought about putting Alina, Lex, Erinn, and Hunter on the other 4 bodies, but the only thing is it's gonna be hard to put the two female heads on male bodies. Something just wouldn't seem right that way, but other than that, I think it looks pretty good so far lol.

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So this sucks... Lex and Russell win immunity. My story gets critically panned and I get 6th with it. So who does that make the tribal targets on Anti-Feng? Me and Erinn of course. Sorry staff... I'm just really pissed cause I didn't want to go out this early on into the merge. Maybe the gods will send me some kind of sign and I will wake up tomorrow to see Erinn and Alina leaving this game, and not me. All I know is that a story I wrote 12 pages on, and spent 40 minutes writing wasn't immunity potential.

How we're voting is Brett and Colleen. We think that making Kim think they are gunning for her would make her somewhat paranoid, and cause her to use prizes. However, what Anti-Feng doesn't know is I made another deal with the devil: I told Kim I wouldn't vote her out with Anti-Feng if they suggested her, and that if there's any way she could keep me safe, I'd appreciate it. I'm hoping that if I can make some last minute deals with the Fengbao people and survive this vote. I don't want to make any deals I can't keep, but the most I can do is try and ask for my safety, and hope that my head is off of the guillotine for at least one more round.

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The targets have switched once again, however this time it's in secrecy. We have now decided to target Kim and Colleen, due to them coming after me. If we target Brett still, I go. Kim apparently has told everything that I've told her, and is voting for me this TC. I hate the fact that I'm sitting here and telling her I won't vote her out, and she's sitting there pretending to be my friend and yet she's secretly planning to knife me in the back. I do hate that I told her I wouldn't vote her this round, but I can't keep that knowing she's plotting to take me out, telling everything I tell her, and I'm fed up with it. I find it VERY hard to keep my deals when people are targeting me, because it would be pointless to stay honorable to someone that's after me.

She might be pissed at me for going back on that deal, but when I got people showing me convos from her saying that she wants me out, then yeah fuck that. I'm not playing to stay honorable to backstabbers.